What a difference a year makes. It was only last year I was battling through my baby blues, yet another Christmas with a hole in my heart. It is very surreal to be in my skin right now. Every day that passes I am filled with more hope, more love, and more happiness. This Christmas will be so different than all the others before it. And next year's will be exciting as well. I feel so thankful for my blessings, my friends and family. My brother, sister and I will be together this year. I cannot remember the last Christmas we shared.....five, six, seven years ago??? And it is especially important as my brother is serving our country in California. My sister will be joining him in March. So I am not sure when we will get to be together again.
I also miss my Dad terribly around this time. I always tried to make his holidays special. After he and my Mom divorced the holidays took a toll on him. I miss him so much but I know he is no longer in pain in this world but at peace in the next.
And last....I want to give some of you hope out there. Anyone who may be reading this and suffering with infertility. In the beginning of November I sent some left-over meds to someone about to cycle. She seems to be the epitome of strength. At 42, trying for a child for 15 years. Onto her third IVF. Only this time she was vigilant with her own care and made suggestions to the her RE, different meds, a different protocol. And just this last week her second Beta came back positive over 230! So ladies, do not give up on your dream. I am so happy for her and her husband. She has some hurdles to get over but the main was has been jumped and cleared! May God bless all of you with your dream come true....baby dust and God Bless!
A mother of two..
1 year ago