Sunday, August 30, 2009


Tomorrow is my 35th Birthday. A number I have been dreading for several years. In all the statistics you read 35 is a fertility marker for women. A marker of time, of what time is left. And as much as I worried endlessly about would we or would we not have children, I worried more about this number. Because of what it symbolized to me. And like all other holidays "would I be pregnant this year during my birthday?" game would be played. Well this year could not be more special. I feel like I beat the odds and I am a success story in the making. That yes, you can! And I am!

It does not come easy, the worrying never stops. Is everything ok? I don't feel as nauseous as I did yesterday, what does that mean? Is my stomach changing? It is a constant battle to keep these thoughts from taking over. I thank God every day for another pregnant day and pray that little bubs is doing ok. I used to go on and on about how I wanted a boy. Now I don't even care, I just want and bubs. I am going t throw the worrying away tomorrow and just enjoy my 9 week 4 day tummy!


  1. Here's to your best birthday ever! Love you so much!

  2. Sending positive vibes. Enjoy each moment.

  3. you know i love you & only send you the best buddy! i know you have wanted this for so long! i'm so proud of you for finally getting your dream & now i don't have to listen to the why, if only, what if anymore (ha-ha, laugh)
    your bff!